broken

You just keep moving, not once looking back.

As if trying to prove something.

You only hear one sound.

And it echoes to your whole existence.

When the air should have been comforted by love,

And not by any other excuse.

Yet everything remains still and hollow.

You drown in it.

It catches you until you feel choked,

caged in darkness.

Suffocated with the exact sameness.

And you feel defeated.

Tired.

As if everything doesn’t belong to you anymore

Like ashes caught in a breeze.

Numbness all over the entire core

Like your first foot to the grave.

Playing out your life in silence,

endless, yet with the exact sameness,

It digs deeper as it creates a bigger hole.

The vastness frightens you.

Grey and cloudless skies.

There is nowhere you could hide in such blankness.

And for a second you stopped

as it catches up on you

and you get stuck in one particular moment.

It all sounds familiar,

the sound of emptiness.

the wanderer tries to sit still

how can you forget a place...
a place where there was the serenity of the wind,
but your mind, clouded?
where there was the calmness of the skies,
but your thoughts, flustered?
where there was the brightness of the sun,
but with tears in your eyes?

how can you forget a place...
where every tree danced with glee,
insensitive of the things around it?
where a simple chair looked back at you,
as if in celebration of your emptiness?
where the chirping of the bird was like a sing-song of mockery,
as if laughing at you?

how can I forget a place
where every nook reminds me of a sad past,
of an almost lover turned to dust,
of goodbyes said a thousand miles apart?

i've been here before,
the place where you broke my heart.

my northern sky

I am the sun

Peeking through the clouds

As I search for you

Amidst the crowd

Where have you gone, my Northern sky?

I thought I knew you so well.

What do you long for?

Will you cross that mile for your dream?

Can you keep your smile even in pain,

A smile of ache but without regret?

Will you swallow your pride to end your misery?

Will you risk everything to make the impossible, possible?

I thought I knew you so well.

Keep still my love

Let me hear the stillness of your heart

Ba-ba-ba-ba-ba-ba

Let me find you through the sound of its beating

So that I may find you again, my Northern sky

in my little corner
with the quiet calmness of my heart.

I am the sun,

trying to figure you out.

I wish I know you so well.

the story of me without you

a starless night

all gray and dark

the moon felt incomplete

it just watched and waited

a fruitless tree

leaves fall from its branch

the bark felt incomplete

it just watched and waited

a humid air

40 days without rain

the desert felt incomplete

it just watched and waited

plain and simple

vanilla without the sprinkles

the ice cream felt incomplete

it just watched and waited

sleepless night

a bed without the blanket

the kid felt incomplete

it just watched and waited

black and stale

a brew without a taste

the coffee felt incomplete

it just watched and waited

as I watch and wait

what is left is this space

between me and you

you without me 

and me without you

the warm hellos

the long conversations

the sincerest laughs

the fondest stories

the silent iloveyous

the sweetest goodnights

the me misses you, terribly.

she's come undone

Your heart of wax

Light them up to conquer the dark

So many souls you’re trying to save

Light the path to no one’s grave.

Fasten your faith to a crippled mind

Everything has crumbled with this twisted fate

A wounded soldier unprepared for war

Arms and legs, all these, they crave.

You are vulnerable,

You are weak

They took advantage, not hearing you speak

As the shadows of you creep into the night

It wanders into the dark,

trying with all your might.

Suffocating and breathless

As they indulge in this surrendered defeat

Weeping silence, echoes not making a sound

Giving up the ghost that once was found.

Redeem yourself for the sake of others

For all the battles that you need to conquer

You know either way you’ll fall

And yet you still choose to save them all.

A mother,

A daughter,

A friend,

A lover.

She’s come undone.

I wonder who will save her now.

a sad fairytale

the sun shines its truest beauty

with her eyes closed, she cannot see

as she sits by the lake in recollection

in her pink, flowing gown

the words echo in her head

‘you are my princess’ he said

‘I promise not to leave your side

and soon you will become my bride’

time passed as she waits still

to a lovely promise she holds dear

as she puts her tiara to her heart

‘where are you my prince…

and the promise to never part?’

the moon shines its truest beauty

with her eyes closed, she cannot see

as she sits by the lake in recollection

in her pink, flowing gown

her fate sits with her

as she waits for her prince charming to come