battle scars

when you thought everything has healed
it comes back again
it has become a part of you
seeping through your veins.

and you start to hear it again
it just went on momentary pause.
it is not a song playing
but, a soul weeping.
carrying a lot of burden,
memories, you think, are long forgotten.
you had your fist clenched,
held on to it too tight
that it caused a sharp sting.

when the ache doesn't fade,
when the scars don't heal,
when the weight has become too heavy,
unfold your fingers one by one --
and learn to let go,
let the pain leave you.

hush now.
be still.
be silent.
you've been through this before.

laws of attraction

nights are longer,
but the tolerance, shorter.

the temperature is warmer,
but the heart, colder.

a broken smile
with a naive state of mind.

you chose to let go,
while i chose to linger.

such a bittersweet moment
despite opposite worlds.

someday I may remember.
someday you may forget.

Moira

she continued to wait
   for clearer skies in the days ahead

she hoped and she prayed
  for just a glimpse of her northern sky.

she never faltered.
   she still believes in fate.

elusion

it all came without question.
Christmas day,
the fourth of January,
the fourth of March.

and then summer
it's almost over,
and it rained today.

as I watch the days pass
i am not at all surprised
with the ticking of the clock.

when the sun rises or when it sets
another day ends.

but still I wait for it to come

even though i know
the only thing that is never inevitable,
is you.

broken

You just keep moving, not once looking back.

As if trying to prove something.

You only hear one sound.

And it echoes to your whole existence.

When the air should have been comforted by love,

And not by any other excuse.

Yet everything remains still and hollow.

You drown in it.

It catches you until you feel choked,

caged in darkness.

Suffocated with the exact sameness.

And you feel defeated.

Tired.

As if everything doesn’t belong to you anymore

Like ashes caught in a breeze.

Numbness all over the entire core

Like your first foot to the grave.

Playing out your life in silence,

endless, yet with the exact sameness,

It digs deeper as it creates a bigger hole.

The vastness frightens you.

Grey and cloudless skies.

There is nowhere you could hide in such blankness.

And for a second you stopped

as it catches up on you

and you get stuck in one particular moment.

It all sounds familiar,

the sound of emptiness.

the wanderer tries to sit still

how can you forget a place...
a place where there was the serenity of the wind,
but your mind, clouded?
where there was the calmness of the skies,
but your thoughts, flustered?
where there was the brightness of the sun,
but with tears in your eyes?

how can you forget a place...
where every tree danced with glee,
insensitive of the things around it?
where a simple chair looked back at you,
as if in celebration of your emptiness?
where the chirping of the bird was like a sing-song of mockery,
as if laughing at you?

how can I forget a place
where every nook reminds me of a sad past,
of an almost lover turned to dust,
of goodbyes said a thousand miles apart?

i've been here before,
the place where you broke my heart.

my northern sky

I am the sun

Peeking through the clouds

As I search for you

Amidst the crowd

Where have you gone, my Northern sky?

I thought I knew you so well.

What do you long for?

Will you cross that mile for your dream?

Can you keep your smile even in pain,

A smile of ache but without regret?

Will you swallow your pride to end your misery?

Will you risk everything to make the impossible, possible?

I thought I knew you so well.

Keep still my love

Let me hear the stillness of your heart

Ba-ba-ba-ba-ba-ba

Let me find you through the sound of its beating

So that I may find you again, my Northern sky

in my little corner
with the quiet calmness of my heart.

I am the sun,

trying to figure you out.

I wish I know you so well.