broken

You just keep moving, not once looking back.

As if trying to prove something.

You only hear one sound.

And it echoes to your whole existence.

When the air should have been comforted by love,

And not by any other excuse.

Yet everything remains still and hollow.

You drown in it.

It catches you until you feel choked,

caged in darkness.

Suffocated with the exact sameness.

And you feel defeated.

Tired.

As if everything doesn’t belong to you anymore

Like ashes caught in a breeze.

Numbness all over the entire core

Like your first foot to the grave.

Playing out your life in silence,

endless, yet with the exact sameness,

It digs deeper as it creates a bigger hole.

The vastness frightens you.

Grey and cloudless skies.

There is nowhere you could hide in such blankness.

And for a second you stopped

as it catches up on you

and you get stuck in one particular moment.

It all sounds familiar,

the sound of emptiness.

the wanderer tries to sit still

how can you forget a place...
a place where there was the serenity of the wind,
but your mind, clouded?
where there was the calmness of the skies,
but your thoughts, flustered?
where there was the brightness of the sun,
but with tears in your eyes?

how can you forget a place...
where every tree danced with glee,
insensitive of the things around it?
where a simple chair looked back at you,
as if in celebration of your emptiness?
where the chirping of the bird was like a sing-song of mockery,
as if laughing at you?

how can I forget a place
where every nook reminds me of a sad past,
of an almost lover turned to dust,
of goodbyes said a thousand miles apart?

i've been here before,
the place where you broke my heart.

my northern sky

I am the sun

Peeking through the clouds

As I search for you

Amidst the crowd

Where have you gone, my Northern sky?

I thought I knew you so well.

What do you long for?

Will you cross that mile for your dream?

Can you keep your smile even in pain,

A smile of ache but without regret?

Will you swallow your pride to end your misery?

Will you risk everything to make the impossible, possible?

I thought I knew you so well.

Keep still my love

Let me hear the stillness of your heart

Ba-ba-ba-ba-ba-ba

Let me find you through the sound of its beating

So that I may find you again, my Northern sky

in my little corner
with the quiet calmness of my heart.

I am the sun,

trying to figure you out.

I wish I know you so well.